You may have noticed I've been under the radar lately; I'm working on 2 gaming projects at once, both of which will be published. That, on top of my schooling, it's taken some serious time out of my casual drawing schedule.

I came up with a game concept for my senior capstone class. Despite the fact that I'm a Sophomore in college and dont know what the crap I'm doing really, out of 35 pitches, my game pitch was selected for development.

A lot of work went into my presentation. I thought up the idea for a physics based puzzle game that I thought sounded fun. I dressed the gameplay up with a ridiculous story involving island research facilities, superintelligent squirrels, and haircare products. I drew a ton of pictures to demonstrate the gameplay, show the concepts of the characters and level designs, and made a short movie of it all slapped together too.

When I started the project, it was really a "let's be random and ridiculous and see how far this goes" kind of mentality. However, after working so hard (to the point of questioning my santiy/motives for game design), I found myself rather attached to the game's artistic and gameplay concepts. It got accepted by a panel of stuffy higher up judges and I was elated. I was assigned a whole team of coders and film students to help create it.

And that's when I realized what was about to happen. I'm new at game design. I have never had leadership experience in my life. My project, though accepted, was about to be lovingly ripped from my arms and placed in the capable arms of other people.

I've never had to share my art with others and it seems rather difficult to do so. But, i suppose, it is a lesson well learned, especially at the beginning of what will hopefully be a long career for me; never marry your work. It will be changed, altered, and grow to become something else--hopefully better--than what you initially intended on your own.

In order for my baby to grow, I gotta let it go and trust in the members of my team so that now we can make something so it's not just 'my' idea or 'my concept. It hurts. But it will be fine, I'm sure.